sixtyfour

happy halloween!
i suppose time flies, actually not so much.
10 weeks is up; despite the long break, i don’t feel at all refreshed.
in fact, it made me more tired than ever.

bewildering questions always overwhelm me
seems like its never-ending?

good thing is that i am always sucked into things pretty quickly (or is that a bad thing)
recently i have been watching a lot about this variety show.
it’s funny and it shows the surreal side of the closeness among people
in korea that is. I always wish i was there, part of them!
will i get a chance at it? perhaps in my dream.

sixtythree

my previous post was almost a month ago. (which may not seem too long for someone lazy like me)
everything thats about that long ago applies throughout. so there is technically nothing much to rant about.
these few days however are the most exciting of all my weeks of holidays.

wednesday: phone conversation (a super long one in fact) with attlee
thursday: dinner with wenxin
friday: CARRIE UNDERWOOD LIVE (with Dan & his friends; who are like me, a huge carrie fan!)
saturday: church youth ministry planning meeting
sunday: DG+church+church youth ministry planning meeting (part 2)+food trail after the meeting
monday: dinner with Attlee (& guangsheng? not sure about this one)

so i’m loving this week especially. something to spice up my very mundane lifestyle for the past 8 weeks.
not looking forward to starting school though; don’t get me wrong.

since I came back yesterday, I decided that I want to dig out all my albums from all over my cupboards
(& I realise I have 12 over albums with are missing!) the first one republic album, some hearts album by carrie underwood, jason mraz (but I know who I lent this to, Jonathan it’s time to return to me!) and some others.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you are holding on to any of my missing CDs, please let me know and return to me!

anyway one republic (secrets) is out! YES! It was played in Germany before anywhere else. I am going to buy their album. (it’s gonna be a major spending fit at HMV soon!) I’m gonna buy everything in November when all the mega artiste have released their new album (especially Carrie’s new album!)

sixtytwo

I will make like a proper update like later (literally, when I’m more settled)
for now I just need to say: WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Carrie Underwood Live! AWESOME! She was literally like one (almost two) arms length away from me!
I should have brought my two carrie CDs with me. But anyway it was all worth it!
now I’m waiting for kris allen, kings of leon, one republic (& hopefully they’ll appear in Singapore! & I’ll get to meet them up close!)

sixtyone

i’ve been getting more angsty by the days (especially so, when I am on my holidays; explain the irony to me!)
some conditions tagged along doesn’t help to smoothen the ends either.
1. my ipod’s battery died; which means i can’t f-ng charge it. AND i can’t find my warranty slips!
which means i’ll be forking $110 for another battery.
2. those f-ng employers won’t call me & right now at 6 weeks left of holidays, I’ve wasted 4 f-ng weeks of holidays.
(i’m just realizing the frequency of the holeyshitcowabunga word.)
3. having nothing to do & sleep insomnia (i presume when you try to sleep at 1am and end up sleeping at 5am plus and then waking up at 9 to 10am later in the same day equates to insomnia; unless anyone has another idea of it)

so since i’ve been having such murderous thoughts, i thought maybe find out the roots of why people get angry (just to kill time and end up thinking this is hellufafun!) – all listed are things that seems to apply to me
(for the whole text, click on the link)
http://ezinearticles.com/?What-Causes-Anger?&id=58598

Internal Sources of Anger

Our internal sources of anger come from our irrational perceptions of reality. Psychologists have identified four types of thinking that contribute to anger.

2. Low frustration tolerance. All of us at some point have experienced a time where our tolerance for frustration was low. Often stress-related anxiety lowers our tolerance for frustration and we begin to perceive normal things as threats to our well-being or threats to our ego.

3. Unreasonable expectations. When people make demands, they see things as how they should be and not as they really are. This lowers their frustration tolerance because people who have unreasonable expectations expect others to act a certain way, or for uncontrollable events to behave in a predictable manner. When these things do not go their way, then anger, frustration, and eventually depression set in.

External Sources Of Anger

There are a hundreds of internal and external events that can make us angry, but given the parameters of a negotiating situation, we can narrow these factors down to four general events.

1. The person makes personal attacks against us. The other side attacks you along with the problem in the form of verbal abuse.

2. The person attacks our ideas. The other side chops down our ideas, opinions, and options.

3. The person threatens our needs. The person threatens to take away a basic need of ours if they do not get their way i.e. “I’ll make sure you’ll never work in this city again.”

4. We get frustrated. Our tolerance level for getting things done might be low or affected by any number of environmental factors in our lives.

Factors That Lower Our Frustration Tolerance

1. Stress / Anxiety. When our stress-level increases, our tolerance for frustration decreases.

2. Pain. Physical and emotional pain lowers our frustration tolerance. This is because we are so focused on taking care of our survival needs, that we do not have time for anything or anyone else.

4. Recent irritations. Recent irritations can also be called “having a bad day.” It’s the little irritations that add up during the course of the day that lower our tolerance for frustration. Recent irritations can be: stepping in a puddle, spilling coffee on your shirt, being late for work, being stuck in a traffic jam, having a flat tire.

Recognizing the Physiological Signs of Anger

By recognizing the physiological signs of anger, we can attune ourselves to know when it is time to take measures to make sure that our level of anger does not get out of control. Here are some symptoms of anger:

1. Unconscious tensing of muscles, especially in the face and neck.

2. Teeth grinding

3. Breathing rate increases dramatically

6. Sweating

7. Feeling hot or cold

8. Shaking in the hands

9. Goosebumps

10. Heart rate increases

11. Adrenaline is released into your system creating a surge of power.

so honestly, think about all of these, i hope it’s not going anywhere. now i need an outlet of release! gonna start applying for other jobs, hopefully one of them WILL respond!.

sixty

recently, i’ve been noticing new bands and singer/songwriters.
& knowing my softspot for budding artistes, I am falling in love with them.

recently found out of this guy, Charles DeWayne.
some would recognize him from the talent show: America’s got talent.
you’ve gotta love this guy.

& i watched this and I gotta tell you, i bet you would love it too.
singing a rendition of  Rolling Stone: SUSAN BOYLE ‘ WILD HORSES!’
& mind you me, this is LIVE, can’t wait for the record man.

oh job oh job come to me
please don’t make me eat maggie mee
as cheap as one packet can be
i want to afford something else other than MSG!

fiftynine

came across this really really cool website, lots of simple drawings and yet ohhowtrue.
http://thisisindexed.com/

I don’t really want to admit this but I realized i judge, a lot.
which totally sucks, considering that after everything, there is nothing that can be done.
blame it on not being able to adjust; perhaps its myself not wanting to adjust.
call it denial or afraid, perhaps so.

MTV VMA 2009 ; an event of greatness.
My guesses were almost right; Beyonce winning the VMA of the year, T.I winning the Male VMA of the year and Beastie Boys winning the Moonman VMA.
Taylor Swift came as a surprise for me, considering that VMA has never been kind to country music videos. (that saga involving Kanye West – shocking!)

Don’t know whats going on? watch
.

Emmys are coming! Sept 20.
I hope How I met your mother wins something good. (aka Outstanding Comedy Series)
but 30 Rock seems like a strong competitor and won’t be surprised if they win it, Again.

My brother is returning home in like  an hour’s time; there goes peace.
But I had a good 2 weeks.
Oh please, someone, EMPLOY ME!!!! haha. I am gonna mass send my resume. & hopefully at least one replies; fingers crossed.

this is by far the longest post I’ve typed.
goodbye. going to pick my brother up.

just got to know about its existence
gotta say they are amazing.
got to be honest, never really liked indie pop but this is just amazing stuff, should hear it for yourself sometime.

was just reading postsecret. all the confession from these people are just, you know.
I’m just so glad that I have childhood friends that are always there.

it’s getting exhausting trying to type words. i can’t seem to structure it, and whatever I type seems ridiculous.
perhaps i should do something audio huh.
on another completely different topic; gonna shut them all down.

fiftyseven

today was pretty long but good day.
morning DG afternoon lunch + dead sea scrolls (or rather 4 fragments of the scrolls)
evening dinner (i didn’t eat though)
all in all, a whole day of fun with an awesome group of people.

yesterday was also pretty great.
met joolin at holland v; caught up like since the failed presentation. 6789! HAHA.
then dinner with attlee.

awesome weekend so far. next week would be a rather good week (& i hope the people calls me up for work. if not i am spending more than making the benjamins.)

fiftysix

one week pass by like swoooosh!
had a lot of rest; in fact a little too much for my comfort.
beginning to feel like a goodfornothingrichbratmaster; although i wished it.

the only thing; no resolution yet.
OH MY WORK APPLICATIONS CALL ME! CALL ME NOOOOOOOW!

fiftyfive

after a long while?
10 weeks of somewhat freedom; & oh believe me, THANK GOD!
a time for myself, i’ll put it as that.

human nature & behavior;  a topic that i can never understand.
is it so easy to be a two faced monster? if so maybe i should try being one.
‘what exactly did I do?’; a question that i find myself asking constantly and quite frankly tired.

sentosa with justin was boringly fun? haha. i’m just glad i got to go out with justin after a ohsodammlongwhile.
it came with a hefty price tag; justin would agree too.
imagine two crazy nothingtodoonamonday entered a shop and spent 100 over dollars in an instant.
i hope one of my application gets through; i really want to work. at my own pace at the pay of the market.

hopefully with spending of my time i would be able to find revelation of my questions.
HOW WHAT and WHEN!